Learning That God is Bigger Than My Mess

I always go back and forth in my opinion of exactly how big God is. Today He is huge and I need to try to remember that. For the last couple months, the weight of what I had been asked to do had been sitting on my brain like a ton of Vicodin. Appearing to make me feel good, but just placing me in a fog that was still very painful. I have been unable to swim out from under the haze and actually trust that God had this one.

Last night I had one of those moments when I realized how small my opinion of God was and how that was affecting my opinion of my task. I was sitting in church listening to a sermon on how God who was from the beginning has shown Himself to us so that we can get close. Get close, who do I think I am to be able to get close? I have put the call that GOD gave me on the shelf because I was tired. I was reminded that it all comes back to my perspective God. Do I really need Him, does He even need me a little? Even when I am following God's plan to a T, He does not need me, and I am not any more or less deserving of His grace. When I am "perfect" I still am unable to approach His throne without my Intercesor.

My mess that I've made of my life, call, and resources is not more difficult for Him than anything else. But when I crave His presence, it brings joy to His heart.

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Happy New Year

Happy New Year everyone!

Seeing as it's been six months since my last blog I thought I would do a quick update. I have reached 69% of my monthly goal! I am so excited about finishing up my support team. I know that God has a plan for the last 30% but please do not stop praying.

Family news: I have a new niece and it has been a pleasure to be in the Midwest so that I can visit. Betsy, the girls and I were able to fly to NYC this Christmas together. Her name is Eliana Suzanne and she is a healthy, chubby, bundle of joy. My family has also been going through transition to a gluten free lifestyle. We have recently heard that our family has celiac disease. It is an auto-immune disease that does not allow the person to eat any kind of gluten (coming from wheat and other grains). So as three of our six genetic family members have tested positive for the disease, it is a new chapter in how to live.

Ministry news: I have already told you of my support news, but this summer I also had the privilege of attending Crusade's staff conference. I was so blessed by the general meetings and being able to praise the Lord with over 4000 other staff members. I was inspired by the speakers and the nation wide updates we were able to here. I also got to walk across the stage as new staff. Something I remember doing with my parents 20 years before that. It was definitely a special moment for me and my parents who were watching from the audience. I also got to meet more of my team and heard more about what I will be involved with when I transition to Dallas.

Prayer Requests:

• Pray for my health. I have been particularly sick this season, and it definitely slows me down.


• Pray for the remaining support I have to raise. I still need contacts and new people in order to finish. Pray that I am open to sharing with those God brings across my path.

This is the beginning of a new year and a new season of blogging. I am going to make it my goal to post 3 times a week, so keep me to it! I am not sure what I will share, but I know that I need to be able to share my progress with my team.