Connecting

I have never much had an issue with connecting. They tell me that third-culture kids (those of us who grow up overseas) over connect, we share too much. But somehow when it comes to this process, I become more timid than I have ever been. What is it about connecting that scares us. Me specifically. If I am afraid of rejection, I remember that I didn't even know this person 24 hours before and will not miss their friendship... harsh but true. If it is making the other person uncomfortable, than I have to remember that I didn't even know this person 24 hours before and don't matter enough in their world to make that much of an impact. If it is my own discomfort then I have a problem. Am I not who I thought I was. This week, I read a passage in Hebrews that I never thought would apply to me. In Hebrews 12:12 it says, "Therefore, strengthen your feeble arms and weak knees." The passage is talking about God disciplining His children through hardships and something about that seemed to strike a chord with me.

Anyone who has ever been victem to one of my back hands (I'm sorry) knows that I am not a feeble armed kind of person. I help pick others up. I am the defender-of-the-younger-sister, and the stiff-backbone-of-the-newer-teacher. So where is God showing me that I am in need of stregnthening? Where can I look for the extra brace. I know that God is teaching me to refocuse my world to one that does not revolve around me.